I love this song. I think it is beautiful and deep. I like to play it when I notice an attachment to friends is preventing me from surfacing subconscious emotions.
"Cop another bag and smoke today" (Addictive/routine mindset)
"I got thoughts, can't control (Suppression of emotions via thoughts)
Got me down, got me low
Rest my mind, rest my soul
When I blow, when I blow (Addictive mindset used to avoid emotions)
Am I wrong, let them know (Self-judgment for addiction)
Feels so right to let things go
Don't think twice, this is me
This is how I should be" (Identification with addiction)
"But I'm aggravated without it
My saddest days are without it
My Saturdays are the loudest
I'm blowing strong" (Suppression of emotions via drugs)
"Fuck did you expect, you can blame it on condition
Blame it on crack, you can blame it on the system
Blame it on the fact that 12 got jurisdiction
To ride around in neighborhoods that they ain't ever lived in
Blame it on the strain that you feel when daddy missing
Blame it on Trump shit, blame it on Clinton
Blame it on trap music and the politicians
Or the fact that every black boy wanna be Pippen
But they only got 12 slots on the Pistons
Blame it on the rain, Milli Vanilli with the disk skip
What I'm tryna say is the blame can go deep as seas
Just to blame 'em all I would need like twenty CD's
There's all sorts of trauma from drama that children see
Type of shit that normally would call for therapy
But you know just how it go in our community
Keep that shit inside it don't matter how hard it be"
This shows the deeper layer of the addiction. It is not an addiction to drugs itself. It is an addiction to blaming one's external reality for their internal issues. In this case, it is the traumatic emotions that people bottle up and suppress.
"Fast forward, them kids is grown and they blowing trees
And popping pills due to chronic anxiety
I been saw the problem but stay silent 'cause I ain't Jesus
This ain't no trial if you desire go higher please
But fuck that now I'm older I love you 'cause you my friend
Without the drugs I want you be comfortable in your skin
I know you so I know you still keep a lot of shit in
You running from yourself and you buying product again
I know you say it helps and no I'm not trying to offend
But I know depression and drug addiction don't blend
Reality distorts and then you get lost in the wind
And I done seen the combo take niggas off the deep end
One thing about your demons they bound to catch up one day
I'd rather see you stand up and face them than run away
I understand this message is not the coolest to say
But if you down to try it I know of a better way
This brings us back to the present. On the surface, we see drug addiction and anxiety. However, now we understand the traumatic emotions that can drive these addictions. The verse finishes with J. Cole offering a solution.
In this scenario, meditation helps us be present with these uncomfortable emotions without fighting them off or suppressing them. This is when the healing process starts.
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